Heart Broken....

[rainbows7]

Just need to talk about the pain I'm feeling right now...my ex and I split a couple of years ago, we're living in different countries. He has just come to see our daughter for the xmas. I know I still love him, I never stopped. I asked him is he seeing anyone and he said "a few people", I feel this is his way of telling me 'yes there is someone'. I'm just so hurt... I guess I had thoughts of being intimate with him again, just like his last visits. I know he is still attracted to me but I do question the love he feels for me. As I don't feel I simply matter all that much to him, and I'm sensitive to not mattering... especially when I was far from my family, friends,home. I just never loved someone like him. I'm sick with jealousy on seeing photos and correspondence with an attractive girl on fb that he is having. I'd next to no sleep last night. I'm just shocked and hurt. Maybe if I found love again it wouldn't hurt so much but I haven't and feel I have tried. Our daughter is ecstatic to have him around, making me consider continously to move back to his country so they can be together and where there will be more opportunites for me over my rural city. I have good friends there too. I'm won't be in a rush with my decision. But gosh a broken heart hurts so so much more so when you really love the person and are very attracted and have that connection.......forever. And to think he is living in my house now knowing there is someone else in his life while we play happy families...torture...I had wanted him to stay with us. Feel it's important for our daughter anyway. I could stay with fam while he's here but I don't want to. Not sure what I'm reaching out for by writing this

[morganah]

I think you need to tell him how you feel and go with your heart. Does he feel the same, you split several years ago, you would expect him to see other people, but his response sounds like he has not found anyone special.

[Bree84]

I think you need to try being honest with him. Just let him know how you are feeling. If you can't do it face to face, give him a letter as he is leaving.
I think you will feel better when you tell him how you feel.

[jayofoww]

Yeah. You really need to tell him about what you feel. To be honest, I have been in that kind of situation. I told her what I feel and found out that she is still in love with me. Now, we're both together and is now planning for a marriage next year.

[anna38]

rainbow7 i know how you feel.when i found out tht i was pregnant me and my partner was over the moon. bt over the next few days i was in for the worst time of my life. the bloke tht i loved walked out on me. and it breaks my heart as well. cz i love him like crazy. i can t get him out off my head.i don t ever think i ll love another bloke. cz my love for my ex is so strong. and so are my feelings for him. everywhere i go it reminds me off him thn i feel sad. i should be happy right now cz i m 8 weeks pregnant with his baby.its like i never use to beable to smell his cherry and vanilla tobbaco bt all of a sudden i ve started to beable to smell his tobbacco.i wish tht me and my ex were back together.

[Smalliegirl]

OK, I'm confused, so please don't take offence! I take it this guy isn't the guy you talk about in your previous thread??? If he is and he's playing both sides of the fence, you need to get rid of him.

I hope you're not confusing not wanting to be alone with love for this guy because he's moved on (a case of you want what you can't have). Take a step back and think carefully about what you really feel. Talk to him about how you feel, but be ready for him to say he's moved on and isn't interested and how that will make you feel. You say you know he is still attracted to you, but is he? Or do you just want it to be that way? Is he being intimate with you when he visits just because he can??

Sorry to be negative, but I just think you should see both sides of the coin.