So i am now infertile. I can never be pregnant naturally again. My tubes where both removed last month due to pelvic inflamitory disease.

Im dealing with it, most of the time, basically i dont think of it at all. I just want to be pregnant again. I want the choice again! We were going to start trying again soon. I just dont know anymore. I stupidly googled today to see if anyone else has been pregnant after removal. But no... why did i do it to myself? Why do i need to feel this...

Want to know what is going on in my head... so do i..

like myself worthless and unimportant.....

Well here i am sitting feeding Heidi in one hand and typing with the other so please forgive the lack of grammar....

Should i continue my introduction? I think so..

when i was born i was very sick, well i was blue... they took me away from my mother and tried to diagnose me.. it took 8 hours but finally they knew what was wrong... Transposition of the great arteries (TGA). Basically at the bottom of my heart the aorters where switched the wrong way.

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Well this is interesting, a new thing for births.. maybe i could document my life. Maybe i could be of interest to some one. Maybe i could help someone. You never know.

So this is my first ever blog. So i might introduce myself.

I am Carly i am 25 and a mother of 3. Koda the energetic, talkative and whiny almost 4 and half year old. Skye the i know im cute, independent loving almost 2 and half year old and Heidi my premmie wonder who has her own timeline...
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